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Wednesday, September 12, 2012

And Now I'm Over My Hissy Fit..Well, For Now...

So my sister asks, "Hey.  What ever happened to your Suck It Up Saturdays?"  So I told her.  What had happened was...

Bear noticed there was a crack in our scale.  We bought a really cheap one, so it's really not a surprise that it didn't last long.  We get a new professional one.  We zero it out.  We are ready to go.  Now, I'm thinking that maybe the reason I have hit a plateau with my old scale is because it's broken, and maybe I actually weight less.  

Bear gets on the scale.  It reads that he weights 30 lbs LESS.  Are you kidding me?  This was great for him because it gave him a boost to keep going with his own weight loss efforts.  I'm all WOOOOP!

I get on the scale.  It reads that I weigh 12 lbs MORE.  (Insert the profanity of your choice here)

Are. you. kidding. me?!

Not only am I heavier than I thought, but I don't even know where I started from really.  If the scale was that broken to read him heavier and me lighter that I have no real beginning weight.  How flippin' fat was I to begin with?  I don't really know, and because I don't, I don't really know how much I've actually lost.  It was like all that work I did was for 0 results.  Yes, I did lose weight.  My clothes are more loose.  People tell me they notice a difference.  I get that.  Here's the thing.  I've been in pain for the past 3 months now training for this half marathon.  I hurt all the time.  It's not fun.  I don't like working out; I never have.  I do it because I like the results, and I want to finish this diva walk.  I can't even say, "This sucks, but I've lost ____ lbs at least."  I don't have that.  Basically, it's starting over.  

So I was mad for two weeks.  Still worked out but didn't do WW or anything like that.  Bear finally said what I needed to hear.  "Keep going or quit.  And since you're not much of a quitter, I guess you're going to keep going."  So onward my friends.  Starting over.  Putting on those big girl panties of mine and getting on with it.