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Ever been in that place where you can do no right? Nothing you do seems to matter. You're doing all the wrong things with your time it seems. Others are succeeding and doing well, while you just aren't. Work just isn't going anywhere. You ask God where to go and it seems as if you're just chasing your tail. Circles. Vicious circles are the only corners you turn. Am I stuck in the Waiting Place? I just want to know which way to go, who to talk to, which friends are the real ones and why business is pathetic. Am I in a time of trial? If I am not forsaken, I sure as hell feel forgotten. Did I step out of God's will without realizing it and now I'm lost? I feel lost...forgotten...alone...useless. My only task, if I can do it right, is to clean the house today because I have nothing left. I'm all out...of everything. People keep telling me the joy of Lord is my strength well....WHERE THE HELL IS IT?! No joy in stock...all gone. I don't know where the furtile soil is...I can't find it....I can't find it...

It's not me, It's you

Have you ever realized that someone is not going to be your friend? Have you ever just looked at the situation, and realized that, even though you've reached out to someone, they aren't reaching back? It's not that you had a falling out, or even that you never got along. You get along with this person. They are great people. They just don't seem to want to build a friendship with you. Maybe it's because they don't have any more time or room in their lives for more friends. Maybe they don't think as much of you as you think of them. I don't know. I do know that when you make this realization, it stings. Not a lot if you don't have too many rejection issues, but just enough to make you evaluate who you're investing in. I was spinning my wheels trying get this friendship going that isn't going anywhere. Relationships really ARE a two way street. I still plan on being friendly to this person because I really do like them. They just don't seem to find me worth their time. Sometimes the truth hurts. Sometimes it stings. Sometimes we just have to build where we see progress and someone else with a hammer.